End of the Year...Reflections

As this 2009 year comes to a close...Many of us...drifted slowly away from our goal of losing a pound a week or at least I did...I want you to know, however, I had found it very helpful...banding with others to lose weight...I did very well...at the beginning...

As time went by...my daughter-in-law, Holly...took off...and continued to do very well...Some of you...Gail and Renee...had already lost a tremendous amount BEFORE we even started the BLOG...The "3" of you...truly were "inspiring" to me....

However, my world turned upside down....I found myself becoming unfocused and my personal goal to lose weight got lost in the shuffle of "moving"...After 21 years in Florida...we moved to a frontier unknown...the state of Montana...This was truly a major change...I know it was not an excuse to "eat" whatever I felt like, yet I did....These past months since AUGUST...living in an RV park for 2 months and now, in a ONE room motel for the remaining year...with Garvin and a 16 year old...no HOME to care for...no callings to keep me busy...no GARDEN to tend...I found going to the refrigerator my constant sense of companionship....Reading and working on my computer became my "activities" day in and day out...Fortunately, I did do some Seminary teaching and a few assignments for the Relief Society took my out of "my room"...Other than that, I became more of a recluse and found myself...being drawn into a way of life...that was "new to me"...

After 4 months...gaining all my "weight loss" back...PLUS an additional 15 pounds...I am now weighing more than I ever have in my entire life...It was time for me to take a deep look into my soul...I needed to understand why I was choosing a path leading me more into a destructive mode "physically" and in other ways "mentally"...than a positive one...Though, I learned a GREAT DEAL in "spiritual" truths and insights...I wasn't dealing with the "inner" me...

I am discovering answers...and am setting "goals" to pull myself out...of the "hole" I was digging for myself...I can NOT do this "alone"...I have come to KNOW...that through "Christ" all things are possible...if I but, truly, TURN TO HIM on a DAILY BASIS...Some of you may be surprised by my comment...perhaps...thinking I had this all down in my life...but, for the past 3 years...I was "slipping" from what brought me the greatest JOY...PEACE...and STRENGTH....I was trying to handle Life's situations...with less prayer...less scripture study...less drawing from the only source that will make one "whole"...I KNOW I had to TURN from going "inward" to an "outward" way of living LIFE...SERVING Father FIRST...which in turn...places me living to SERVE others...and "losing myself".....

I have rededicated my life...my "covenants" mean more to me...now...than they ever have...My understanding...has deepened...and my DESIRE...to build Father's kingdom...is my life's focus...

So, what does this have to do with THIS particular BLOG..."weight loss"...? Well, overcoming the "physical" is a step towards...deepening our "spiritual" relationship with our Father...Our body is a "temple" and it does have a "direct" correlation with our "spirit"...

I am resetting my "weight loss" goals...but, with a difference emphasis...on WHY the need to lose my weight...I can do "all things" through Christ...who WILL STRENGTHEN me...

I will weigh in on New Year's Day...to set my "ticker"...(smile)  Happy New Year, everyone...!!!!

Time to play the game again...

Well, this round did not play out like we thought so back to the, well, umm, stirups again. :)

I started the Femara last week and last night was the last dose (for this cycle). Tomorrow I start the ovulation testing again (yeehaw) and Friday morning I go for another Ultrasound.

If they find a viable follicle then I get to take home a shot again.

Last month for the first cycle we wound up spending $500.00 between the meds and 4 Ultrasounds. Sheesh!!!

That is all to report for now. :)

down but not giving up!

Hello ladies,
I know it has been a while. Last time I posted I shared about putting some weight back on well....still trying to get that back down again(: I came across a really great quote and I try to keep it in my mind when I am reaching for the wrong kinds of food, sometimes it works and others too late(: but the point is keep moving forward and always striving to do better. I still plan on getting to my goal by Jan 1 2010, we shall see. The quote was " Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" Simply put but powerful. Ok ladies back to the grind. I wont be able to do my workout videos for a while as out TV is now broken (another story another BLOG-our family BLOG) so I am going to try to get to the gym a few times a week or play tenis with a friend if holidays and timing work(: Watching what I eat and not just as it goes in(:
Ok I know enough already lady(: hehehehe
I hope you all have a super duper week and make it better then the last(: It takes one day even one minute(second too) sometimes but we can do it(:

fallen and working back up

OK I know it has been a little bit. After having such a great results late month or so of going down 9 I was so excited. Well unfortunately I have gone up some....I need to get down about 15 more to reach my year goal....I can do this..if I just stop putting the wrong foods in my mouth, which lately with so much stress, papers, final and just life as a temp single mom runs you down...and so I have been stuffing my face. I need to get back on track and keep moving forward. I don't share this as poor me just the reality of life and sometimes turning to food not so much for comfort at this point but I think more out of habit as it really doesn't taste as great as it use to but it still puts weight on like it use to. I will keep posted as I get back down and work towards my year goal...Josh is home in just over 3 months for 2 weeks R&R and then he has to go back to Iraq...I have that long to get to where I would like to be(: I was only 18 pounds down when he left..I am now just over 50 (give or take on the day) so a huge difference(: for which I am grateful and really worked at it(: I hope and pray you are all healthy and happy and safe with your families. God bless(:

It has been a while(:

I know it has been a while but I am not the only one(: Ok time to fess up(: I guess over this last month since my last posting I have gone down 9 pounds(: Broke the plateau and still moving on. That was what it was on Thursday anyways(: We will see what this Thursday has to tell as I have been off my program a few days enjoying foods I shouldnt be having(: hehehehehe oooops oh well not going to kick myself I am a grown woman and know when I am doing what(: even enjoying a big piece of cheese cake(: mmmm and it was so good(: Tomorrow is a new day and a new week and I will do so much better(:
I hope you are all doing great even if you dont post anymore know that if there is a will there is a way even if it takes a time to get there..... you are not alone....
Have a super duper week ladies(:
Down a total of 54pounds...10 more to reach my year goal(: I can see I can make it and maybe even a little more before Jan 1 2010(:

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Slow week in weight loss. A lot going on and eating stuff I shouldnt. But with that said and done, no loss this week but no gain. I will be starting a program shortly and will keep all posted on how it goes(: Have a super duper week(:

The last week of August and......

This past week I went down 1.5 pounds(: I hope my plateau is done for now anyways. I hope you had a great and successful week(: Till next week have a great one(: